Terrible
I have a terrible urge to delete something. Primarily, all of my published writings, pages... I feel like a complete fool with some delusions. This is exactly the feeling because of which I exited the role-playing community. I have to quote my own character now: 'I can handle any critique or foul word, but not when I feel a complete idiot myself.' And the funny thing is, people in general don't care about others enough even to critique. One is... unexistent. But not when someone needs something from them, of course. Of course! This also gets on my nerves terribly.
So, the motto for tonight is Fuck y'all. Just fuck off. I wish I could block some thoughts like website links in the browser. It would be amazing. Life-saving, even. And yet I have to perform as a thinking animal. How sad, utterly sad.
I hope I'll get better tomorrow. Some words are not good for online blogs.